2009 sucks big time.
Friday, March 27, 2009
with ♥ 11:37 PM
i dont like ox. i really dont.
this year is so frigging unlucky and so many bad things happened alrdy, leaving me extremely edgy nowadays. idk, i stil have this weird feeling that sth bad gonna happen but i dunno what. and its v v scary. zzz. stupid 2009 :(
nth much happened nowadays [i guess for this year, it's a good thing], just really tired. and i realise
i cant multi-task. and that sucks. :\! hmph. and today Orchard road learning journey.
I FEEL CHEATED. THE TEACHERS PRINTED BLACK AND WHITE ON PAPER FIRST GROUP TO REACH SCHOOL AFTER THE ENTIRE EVENT GETS A PRIZE. AND THERE WASNT ANY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( i feel so upset okay. we shld have just dilly dally and shop lah. wth. :( i'll never trust aj teachers on such stuff again :( angry uh! hmph.
today i had alot of mood and feelings through out the day, from happy to angry to exasperated to exhilarated... and to fear, anxiety, worried, panic, paranoid.... idk, it's rly scary. its like death, this year, is so so close. it's really scary. idk. :( :( :(
today, i felt the fear of losing someone really close to me, someone i really love. that's really scary. the feeling is so different from watch tv dramas, the fear was raw. i dont ever want to think about it or experience it [it's inevitable i know but still!] :( sigh. i'll cherish all i have after all the incidents that happened. second blow of this year. i cant take many more blows, i swear. and im kinda worried. :\ oh dear. one more week, before i go into a complete state of frenzy and hysteria. eeeeeeeeek.
-jinghui-
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